no matter how hard i tried to solve problems i still fail mayb liting is rite im not in the position to solve them cuz the root of problem doesnt involve mi
i wan peace i always wanted peace i hate to see parents quarrel see mum angry wit bro y mum choose to deal wit problems this way? i dunno i wan peace... is that real difficult
when one could no longer take the stress from his/her env he/she will develop a heck care attitude i dun bother i dun care not my problem
alot of things happened today all bad things i lost control of myself lost control of my mind i fainted the feeling was bad bt that is when i decided to give up i developed the heck care attitude at that time
liting was right i took everything as if its my problem bt i realise that i couldnt do anything is the problem doesnt involve me bt somehow i hate... i hate the atmosphere that my house has i hate to hear ppl shout i wan a peaceful env to fight my final war is that real difficult?
sometimes i realise that i take things too seriously bt doesnt this show that i care? well why shld i care when others dun care she din even come to ask mi how was i.... in her eyes mayb im not that important to her cuz from young till now she nv get very seriously upset wit mi when we quarrel im the one whu feel real upset what does that indicate its so obvious that she dotes him more rite? cuz she cares for his every action bt she doesnt seems to care for me
i dun say it out doesnt mean i dun care i tried bt i failed kinda discouraged very discouraged i din really recovered from the breakdown this afternoon bt what can i do i still have to do my things i still have to fake out a smile i hate myself for being this way bt i've gt no choice i gave up
