Sunday, March 29, 2009
im all STRESSED up
just when i tot i have left with only 1 lab report to do
i was told that there is another report for BS210
y is it nv ending???
esp when it is near exams
I HATE THE SYSTEM TO THE CORE!!!
11:29 PM
Saturday, March 21, 2009
i always plan a whole ton of things to complete for the weekend on friday
bt i realise that sometimes i only manage to finish mayb 3 out of 7 tasks
haha....
cuz i love sat nights....
i dun go out on sat nights
staying at home
wondering around...
surfing net
listening to music
i love to be alone sometimes
do things that i enjoy doing
normally i will only start to do my work on sun
i don't really like sun
cuz i have this pre-Monday blue on sun night
HAHA!
i dun like sun becux of sch...
so i only love sat nights~~~~!
exams coming soon....
18 more days i guess
haha
of cuz im not looking forward to it
im looking forward to my 3-months HOLIDAY!!!
3 MONTHS~
WOOHOO....
ok, to b exact
should b only 2 months...
cuz gg for attachment for 1 month
yea.. in a sec sch....
looking forward to it...
bt a bit scared too...
hope everything will b ok then... =)
11:31 PM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
我好心疼他...
11:10 PM
9:09 PM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
been too emotional recently
n i blame it on the workload
HAHA!
i really hope that may will come faster!
can't wait for my holidays to b here...
now i only allow positive emotions to stay in me
shoo shoo~
negative emotions all go away
i want to b happy!
n i guess i will have to work hard towards my goal of life
n that is to be happy always
LaLaLaLaLaLa....
yes!
tt's my main goal in life
=)
i will jia you de~!
9:19 PM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
being in a rls is tiring
being in a rls can be really bad at times...
esp when the other party is really to 'hide' something from u
i admit that i was really affected by his words the other day...
cuz i dunno y
i suddenly felt very insecure
being in a rls is like on a roller coaster ride
there are ups and downs
n esp when one cant see the tracks before you
bt i guess
mum is right
lovers have to be forgiving
n teach each other new values
sotong is rite too
when one is all alone in a struggle
one will feel super lost
n i guess my greatest weakness is that im too dependent on him
though i always din wanna admit
bt he greatly affects me
when we quarrelled
n i guess he takes really good care of me
that sometimes i even depend on him for solutions to my own problems
i should not do that
n yes
i should not do that
sch work is piling up
i was telling sotong today
that i m very busy
bt somehow
i feel that i have done nothing
im too addicted to blogging
im too addicted to facebook
n im addicted to dislike my sch work
probably due to the prof there
sometimes i even feel better for not gg sch
is bad for health
HAHAHA!
8:43 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
thank you sotong...
thanks for being there when i need someone to tok to
thanks for the encouragement
u are right
i lean on u
u lean on me
the most we fall down together and have a laugh over it
thanks for the support!
i felt better =)
1:17 AM
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
do ppl get emotional to a point where all they need is encouragement?
words of encouragement are needed to give ppl a push to move forward
to motivate them and to give them hope....
bt sometimes ppl neglect the need to show encouragement
all they know how to do is to discourage
to them mayb they are just jokes
bt to ppl who are feeling real bad about themselves
words of discouragement will only bring them down further
up to a point when they will see no hope
without hope, how can ppl move on with their lives
being unhappy
how can a person voice out?
to voice out their unhappiness
ppl will see them as emotional and sensitive
bt if the person choose not to voice out
does that mean that they are not emotional and sensitive?
how can one feel then
to bottle his/her feelings all up
and find nowhere to empty out their feelings...
ppl simply neglect this portion
or probably up to an age
one will have to be responsible for their feelings
and not to burden others with their feelings
then i have to ask a question
why then ppl have to go through this process of growing up
to grow up means to b responsible for ur own emotions
controlling ur own emotions means u can't vent it out as and when u like it
then this is a form of self-deceiving
u know that u r unhappy
bt in order to appear less emotional and sensitive
u are forced to bottle the feelings all up
up to a point where u could no longer breathe....
am i under depression?
not loving the things that i used to do
seeing no hope in this world
being all stressed up is bad
especially when u have more and more responsibilities
this will then stop u from pursueing the life that u want to live
all i can do now is to mug
besides mugging is still to mug
n i start to question myself
why m i losing all my happiness when i choose to mug
seeing no hope in the world
all i receive are attacks
no form of encouragement from the ppl i care
jokes are meant to be laughed at
bt y m i always being the joke
being laughed at too much is damaging
i could no longer stand up and say that im the best
instead i feel like hiding up in a place where no one knows me
only in the absence of ppl
then i could stand up high
with great confidence to say that im the best
how would u feel if everyone is pointing fingers at u
when u know that u r trying hard to change
ppl are not accepting u the way u r
u r being ejected out of the society
u belong to nowhere
how pathetic could that be
i know i should b less emotional
im trying hard to
bt at certain times
it's hard...
no one is there to console me
im alone to deal with all these shit
be strong
be brave
10:45 PM
Monday, March 09, 2009
a very random tot that i had on my way back home someday...
wanted to pen it down....
so i decided to post it here....
暗恋 单恋 是幸福的
有人说只要默默地喜欢一个人
知道他是幸福的
她也可以很快乐
对她来说
爱情不一定要拥有对方
只要在他的身旁给予他支持 鼓励
她就心满意足了
就算他的身边有另一个她
她也不介意
她只要他开心就好
就算她的朋友说她傻
她也不在乎
这是她伟大的爱情
不是每一个人都能像她一样伟大
暗恋 单恋 是痛苦的
有另一个女孩一直喜欢着她的好朋友
选择等待着机会告白
曾经以为等待会改变什么
他终就会属于她
但是最后时间证明了
他只把她当好朋友
他喜欢上另一个女孩
这时的她
不知所措
责怪自己
为什么不早一点说出口
也许 或许 结果就会不一样了
她哭了
决定不爱了
为什么爱情要这么复杂
为什么她喜欢的人喜欢的不是自己
她说道: "能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了"
往往在爱情里
不是每种感觉都能得到回应
有些感觉只能永远的埋在心底
会后悔吗?
会痛苦吗?
不知道
也许这样是最好的结局
8:55 PM
Sunday, March 08, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOTONG!!!
9:49 PM
Saturday, March 07, 2009
now....
i got a very strong intuition....
that my intuition is rite....
bt i dun wish it to b this way....
really....
if not i will feel very guilty....
let's hope it's not like what i thought....
2:29 PM
Thursday, March 05, 2009
can i not feel....
9:06 PM
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air
See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said
Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you
8:52 PM
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
that day i was telling sotong...
there was once when my poly friend aka Alina told me sth just b4 we were abt to grad
she told me that after we grad from poly
i can no longer say something so straight forward to others le
cuz i have to b more mature
n that not everyone can accept the way i say it......
and the sentence is........
*drum rolls*
'我要大便!!'
bt my dear Alina
until now... i still keep saying the sentence!!!
bt i did some alteration to it....
cuz i said
'I WANNA SHIT!!!'
oopx!
i know im not supposed to say it as im a mature young adult
mayb when im in NIE, i will stop saying it
9:38 PM
